Many Happy Realizations

It is so incredibly late (when you have two exams in the morning) but I couldn't resist posting right now. It seemed a fitting end to a very interesting day; one of the best I've had in a while and (this is the amazing part) I never stepped foot outside my dorm. I chilled here all day in my pajamas, just took a shower about a half an hour ago, studied some, baked (and burnt) some brownies, wrote some music, talked to people online, grew closer to some people, settled a large tiff with EricaRose, laughed with my suitemates, heard from a new friend. It was a good day. As I said it ended with someone sending me a message on facebook, someone who read my blog and who is actually dealing with what I am dealing with right now. He mentioned that my blog put him at ease; it was so flattering to hear that it helped him out like that. It really makes me smile to think that what I write here might affect someone positively later.

With that in mind, I realized SO much today. In a nutshell I know now that I basically have nothing to complain about.

I realized that, although currently in a slump with meeting guys, I will find someone sooner or later, because the reality is I have so much to offer.

I realized that, although the music I write isnt going to be the best, it is a step in the direction I want to go with my life (and, in listening to it more and more, it isnt so bad after all).

I realized that my dorm isnt such a bad place, and that I could be living in a lot worse situations (I wish the oven didnt burn my brownies, though) with a lot shadier people.

I realized that I dont have to worry about not studying for tests if I don't need to- I've never been one to have to study for 8 hours...why start now because everyone else has to? If I feel confident in my abilities...why study endlessly?

And Finally, I realized that although perfect guys live in California and New York City, there is sure to be one here eventually. And through the wonders of instant messaging, I can still talk to, learn from, grow with, admire, and enjoy those who live elsewhere; and that makes me happy.

So there. I am happy. Two exams in the morning, and I am happy. Burned brownies, and I am happy. No guy in bed with me, and I am happy. Yep. For once, I am actually genuinely happy.