Update

I hate it when I leave a semi-negative post up for a long time, cause it gives the impression that I am always negative when that really isnt the case. Thanksgiving break was great, I enjoyed going home and simply not being here. I am happy to be back, but the drive was just....death. Literally. My heart goes out to those that lost their lives in the crash...and to the rest of us that were so delayed. But at least I made it home in one piece.

Anyway, today has been an oddball. My sunglasses broke (and I mean non-wearable), my cell phone died as I was talking to Axel (so our lunch plans were thwarted and he was probably wandering around campus wondering where the hell I was...I feel sooo bad, I'm sorry Axel), I saw a bunch of people I recognized but that I was unable to approach (thanks to the wonders of meeting (or not?) people online), I sang like shit in my solo rehearsal (I have to do my final Italian diction presentation on Wednesday..."not prepared" is a severe understatement), And I am just generally feeling not so great. But it's all good.

I don't know why but I want someone...badly. I shouldnt really complain, I've only been out for about 2 months and I have gotten enough action....but I cant help but long for more. Its like when someone has seen a huge chocolate cake though a display case for their entire life...and finally they broke the glass...but only got one lick of icing before the cake was put in the fridge (my appologies for the extended metaphor, its the best I could come up with). So yeah, in this sea of people in Gainesville...I just want one (dont we all?). I don't understand why the quest is so damn near impossible. Perhaps because I am sitting rather than 'questing.' But whatever.

All that is keeping me going right now is staring at the serious cutie in front of me (much much more interesting than Introduction to Journalism hell). Too bad he is straight. I dunno, I am forced to ask myself whether or not I am drowning in a sea of being distracted by guys...and furthermore, whether or not I need to be saved. I seriously wish I knew. If someone has an answer for me, please dont hesitate to give your imput. The comment button is right below this line. Thank you.


Oh, and I came out to my dad. Just know that it went well. I'll blog more about it later.