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I am in my familiar blogging location (refer to last post) once again. I don't know what it is about this spot, really...it always evokes the same feelings regardless of the mood im in. I mean I wish I could feel and understand what it would be like to be totally disengaged from the people that walk by and to be aptathetic towards my surroundings...even if only for one day. I can't help it though, I'm so....who knows. People watching should be a fun thing to do when youre bored, not something that completely rules a persons life. Unfortunately I find myself in that second category. And when I avoid it and sit in my dorm, I only get more depressed. So basically I am doomed if I do and doomed if I don't. Wonderful. I am definitely ready for a change, if not in the people around me, at least something to eleviate my fixation on people. I am starting to hate it passionately. I want to notice cuties when they walk by, but I don't want to lust over every guy that passes. I mean to think that is foolish (Oh, and if this statement comes as news to you....I happen to be gay. And there you have it.) because really, there can't possibly be that many hot guys here. I can't relate to Erica when she says that she has yet to really see any attractive guys....when for me, I see one every second. Take right now for example. There are at least 2 around here, and more at any given moment. It is absolutely pathetic. Why do I feel so overrun with this? I am I just not discerning enough? Or are my tastes just far to varried? Or am I just sexually frustrated? Who knows, I am tired of it though that is for damn sure. (Ah, it is starting to rain. I must conclude this post for now).