The Movie in my Mind

I love waiting for URP3001 to start. I always have this hour or two to sit, ponder, reflect, relax, and enjoy my afternoon. My posts always sound the same though because I am always in nearly the same introspective mood. Today I'm listening to Rufus Wainwright and I feel like I am living inside of a movie; where the people who walk by are just extras on some oversized movie set, that the biker that just rode was past was paid to do so, and that the girl on the bench over there wouldn't be sitting there if some greater person wasn't forcing her to. Don't ask me.I think good ol' Rufus has that "Soundtrack of Life" quality, I absolutely love his music...and he is cute, and gay. So that is cool...I just wish I had found out about him sooner. About the gay thing...sorry to freak anyone out by my last post. I was just kinda tired of not being able to blog what I was actually feeling...and always having to work around the fact that the majority of my thoughts and moods revolve around my pseudo-in-the-closet status. If any of you discovers that I am gay via the blog...don't take offense that I didn't tell you in person, or that you found out somewhat "indirectly." Telling people is awkward, uncomfortable, and redundant...and really I am just somewhat tired of it. I'll be happy to talk to you personally about it at some point later, but for the time being I just want to try and enjoy life without having to cover it up anymore. I have certian people in mind that I haven't told...who may or may not read my blog...I guess I am sorry you found out this way, but it was just easier. Well, I am going to just relax and look around at the actors that meander past....I wonder what kind of movie I am living in right now. It's so....perfect. Talk to you later.