A Post.

Well, I have written two posts since the last time I officially posted, but I thought for the betterment of society (and more importantly my mental state) I deleted them. A tragic loss? Maybe, but sometimes it helps just to write the things and not have the world see them. I suppose I am doing well, obviously havent been in the bestest of conditions recently (hence the depressing posts) ....but yeah. I think it was a passing thing. Some things are just hard to swallow..but once you do, you eventually feel better for it.

I'm sitting outside on this my only break of the day from 8:30am til 7:30pm. It's a nice day, but overall it has been ho-hum. Nothing overly exciting has happened today, I had breakfast with someone unexpected after my musicianship exam (so I lied, I usually have a 50 minute class but there was a 5 minute one-on-one exam instead...so i had one other "break") which was nice. I just cant tell if the guy is straight or gay or what! He is really cute...but all common sense would point to him being really friendly and yes, straight....but when I think about it, it felt like any other "first date" type thing I've been on with guys. ::shrugs:: Who knows, maybe in time something will happen. For now, I will consider him straight and not dwell. I think he would always make a great friend too...so all is good.

Anyway, I guess my non-post is done. The juicy ones were erased...for the better. I'll go back to my sitting and staring at the passerbys..wondering...watching..wanting...all that good stuff. Nah, maybe I'll read.

Yeah....


..right.