Life isn't revolving around me, it's rushing past

Life has been a blur for the past few days. A lot has been on my mind, I am yearning to meet new people to the point of craziness (and embarrasing myself in the process), and I am feeling as if everything is going on around me and I'm standing still for some reason. College should be full of new experiences, new friends, new places to go...and my days are pretty much summed up by...lets see. Walking to the music building, having all my classes in one place with lots of familiar (but not friendly) faces, and walking home. After that I get online and sit at the facebook and look at all the experiences I should be having but that I seem to be missing out on. True, I have to take the initiatve, but, for example, in trying to meet people, I have simply felt stupid, tounge tied, or too emotional for them to bother talking to me again. That, and a lot of people are simply not condusive to being friends with. I have encountered nice people, sure, but there seems to be an excess of rude ones too. Maybe I am hallucinating or something, but that is how it seems to me. I have met people online but the internet is a medium that is so ephemeral...people are talkative one second and silent the next, active one minute and suddenly idle the next. It leaves me with a feeling of confusion, lonliness, and the thought "what just happened?" But such is the fine practice of instant messaging. Instant to send, sure, but not always so instant in recieving. I do have one happy and concluding thought: It is Friday. Hoorah.